Seriously
I feel like I don't even know you
And I would rather me leave
Than stay and watch you make a fool of me."
-"Breakdown" Forever the Sickest Kids
Right now, I feel like this song is the story of my life. And then now I have 2 b friends with this girl that I hate? This sucks. Sorry but I just basically hate my life. My mother expects me to be SISTERS with this girl who i was tight with in kinder. I'm 8 years past that and I've matured into a teenager. She doesn't get the fact that I actually grow. I mean she thinks my personality is still the same as when I was 5. I mean it kinda is but I mean my style isn't flowers, butterflies, and pink and anything girly. No. My style now, the real me, not little blond freckled baby girl. No now I'm Hot Topic and Forever 21 graphic tees. And my taste in friends? I mean it gets on my nerves when someone is perfect hair, perfect skin, perfect attitude, perfect style, perfect grades, just PERFECT! I NEED FLAWS OR I GO CRAZY! I mean everyday, its "Lauren you should be more like her!" IT GETS ON MY LAST NERVE! Now Sage, we both go crazy.
We can actually have this thing called FUN! We don't have to be perfect for everyone! We don't care! We go dancing in the rain! That is what fun is. We can laugh about anything. I mean with Ashley that's how it used to be. I mean today, I saw this hot guy. Well, I thought he was hot. He was like 14-16. We don't know. So they made me play tag(I had a sprained ankle and they made me be it. YAY 4 FRIENDS! [sarcasm]) and I like stopped the game 2 show them the hot guy. They looked at me like I had 2 heads 4 thinking a guy was cute. She liked a guy 4 a year who was really ugly. I mean he's funny but thats all. And trust me if u get 2 know him, u can't like him. If Sage was there, she wouldn't say ew why him? I mean she just goes oh well he's not my type so u can have him. And after I came out of the bathroom and I couldn't find him. So I figured I would make them laugh.
So I went now I'm depressed. Ashley rolled her eyes and walked away. Her and Melissa ditched me today. I was just sitting there for a few hours texting. (Aimee if ur reading this or Jenny, thank you. You made me look busy so I didnt look like a loser. :D) So on the car ride home, this is what happened. I was talking 2 my mom about the movies thing. I was supposed 2 go 2 the movies with my besties (Sage, Corrina, Monica).
Mom- Vanessa said she wont let Ashley walk to the movie.
Me - Mom we'll be okay and mom did you tell vanessa about the movie?
Mom - Yeah I invited her.
Me - MOM! THERE ISNT ENOUGH ROOM IN THE CAR!
Mom - Then you'll take the Truck I don't care you can't leave Ashley out.
Me - Well you really could have told me before you did this!
Mom - Lauren Ashley is always invited.
Me - Mom we never talk! We arent close anymore!
Mom - Yes you are. You will always be close you're like family.
Me - Whatever *looks @ phone*.
You see what I'm dealing with? She cannot choose my friends for me. I am not her, you know. My mom is shy. Me? I scream at least once at lunch because I am loud and hyper. I have diffrent taste in friends! I just want to tell her this. I mean why can't she just be fine with the parents being friends and me and ashley just like not being close? GOSH! mk im done. peace.



